another year, another season.
i find myself more and more inadequate, disobedient, prone to wander.
in some ways, it makes me sad that things like fasting, confession and prayer, repentance, works of grace, mediating on scripture.. are so easily pushed aside and forgotten, unless some separate and special time is set aside for them.
or maybe i’m just retarded to an unworldly degree—
and am JUST beginning to realize the extent/amount of effort, time, resources, the list goes on.. that relationships demand and necessitate that we invest in. in a way, i suppose that makes sense.. since nothing is free.. not even grace.. for SOMEONE had to pay.. even for us. i think we forget too often that we were bought with a price.
as i write this, and realize how hard this piece of stone i call my heart has become, my only desire and yearning is to encounter God through the Word & QT, each day, so that i may grow in love, wisdom, and discernment.
my only plea:
discipline me.
